I miss college for the ability to do almost nothing and feel accomplished. I miss the ability to be able to binge drink til 4am then go to class the next day at 1pm. I miss feeling a part of something, even if it was only a part of a student body with 60,000 other people. I miss being able to be a fuck up and it being okay because everyone around me was just a fuck up too.
Now... I work and feel unaccomplished because my job is not related to what I majored in college. I can't drink more than 2 beers without being drunk and fall asleep by 10pm. I am a part of nothing now. I can't afford to be a fuck up because I have actual responsibilities now. And everyone around me is still a fuck up because they're still in school and it's horrible because when I mention how pointless everything has become in my life, they say generic "It'll be okay" words and then ask if I want to get high and/or drunk.