Fuhgh.

Things haven't changed much, but I hope they do soon. I can only deal with this for so long before my bones explode.

I am a terrible person, I have decided.

Some shit's going on right now and I honestly don't know what the outcome will be. I have been crying all day. I had no idea my eyes could be this puffy. There is talk of drifting apart and guilt for lost futures and causes of misery.

Breathe In Breathe Out

Things could be worse. There are homeless kids.

Superficial, Vapid.

I miss college for the ability to do almost nothing and feel accomplished. I miss the ability to be able to binge drink til 4am then go to class the next day at 1pm. I miss feeling a part of something, even if it was only a part of a student body with 60,000 other people. I miss being able to be a fuck up and it being okay because everyone around me was just a fuck up too.

Now... I work and feel unaccomplished because my job is not related to what I majored in college. I can't drink more than 2 beers without being drunk and fall asleep by 10pm. I am a part of nothing now. I can't afford to be a fuck up because I have actual responsibilities now. And everyone around me is still a fuck up because they're still in school and it's horrible because when I mention how pointless everything has become in my life, they say generic "It'll be okay" words and then ask if I want to get high and/or drunk.

Last minute thoughts

Here are some of the incoherent thoughts that occur to me when I am extremely tired (ie Right Now). They are directed at no one, nothing, and seem to be just random sentences that formulate right before I fall asleep.

That box makes you look fat.

Cheddar cheese on wheat, extra rye bread, please.

If ferrets were weasels, I'd wash them in Scope.

Thanks, i'll have the wrought iron surprise.

I need to go to bed now.

Talking

Feeling rather lost at the moment.

I'd like to talk to certain people but fear I'd just be a bother.
I do my best to not be a bother to people anymore. Otherwise bad things happen.

Childhood

My mom used to have this magnet on our fridge:



I remember it being on the fridge when we lived in Pennsylvania and California. I don't know where it is now.

The Quest

The Quest is a movie I remember first seeing when I was 5 years old, and loving it. I remember falling asleep to it one night. I remember jumping on the couch with my brother while watching it. I remember watching it many times and every time, I loved it.

I'm not going to lie, the last time I actually remember watching this movie was when I was seven or eight. So my memory of the plot, characters and all that is very dim. But what I do remember is this:

American boy ends up in Australia cuz his parents are dead. He makes friends with Australian blonde girl. They ride bikes on rails and hang out at some spooky lake thing. Giant monster comes up out of the lake every once in a while scaring the crap out of anyone nearby. Aborigines are involved somehow. American boy investigates, even though most people tell him to give up and leave it be. BUT HE DOESN'T.

Yes, this is a terrible plot synopsis and that is why (among other reasons) that I am not a film critic. But what you must know is that this film stands out in my childhood memories as great, and if you happen to get a chance to see it, do so. It's unfortunately not available on DVD and the distributors apparently have no plans to release it on DVD, so if you find a VHS copy, I suggest you purchase it.

The Quest is an Australian film, and apparently, goes by another title in Australia: Frog Dreaming.

If you are anything like me, you'll agree with me when I say that this is a far better title.

I say this because when I googled "The Quest" the only results I came up with were some shitty Jean-Claude Van Damme movie made the same year here in the States. Other Google hits included some Bryn Christopher song, something about Doritos, ANOTHER film from 1976 called "The Quest", and many, many books called "The Quest".

Now, I understand that this film was made in 1986, before we knew about the internet and long before "google" was more than just a really big number. But considering the Van Damme movie was made THE SAME YEAR as Frog Dreaming, why would you change the title? This title change is confusing to someone trying to find the film, and is incredibly unnecessary. I would like to beat up the idiot who was in charge of this moronic marketing move.

Also, Frog Dreaming just sounds cooler. It makes me wonder what frogs dream about, or what it would be like to be a frog who was dreaming, and I like that. Personally, I feel that since this movie is a kid's movie, having "Frog Dreaming" as the title would have made me just wanna watch it even more. I mean, come on. Kids love frogs. Sure, people like the idea of quests. They're interesting. Go find the Holy Grail! Go rescue your son, Matthias! TERRIBLY INTERESTING QUESTS. But this kid in the film was not ON a quest. This film is not a quest. Rather it is a mystery. If anything, he was on an investigation.

I hope my mom still has our old copy of this movie. I'm going to ask her next time I talk to her. It's probably in storage....

Broccoli

There are many vegetables in the world. One is called Broccoli. Broccoli is often confused for Cauliflower, which is disgusting, by those uneducated in vegetables. One can quickly learn the distance by having someone slap them in the face with both a head of broccoli and cauliflower. Cauliflower is much more dense, and therefore more likely to hurt when used as a weapon. Broccoli is known in many cultures for being gross. Let this be known that this is a misnomer, for broccoli is delicious. You can steam it or eat it raw, and if you truly abhor the taste of broccoli, there are a number of condiments available to cover up broccoli's luscious taste. This author recommends sea salt or Tabasco sauce. Broccoli is also famous. Broccoli was featured in the book "Be a Perfect Person in Just Three Days", as well as an episode of the hit animated television show, "Family Guy."

Cuz I feel like it....

I'm Woody. Howdy howdy howdy.

In other news, I'm not really sure how I feel about having three different blogs. Two was one thing. Three is an entirely different matter altogether. And it's not as though any of them get much traffic. To be honest most of my friends jumped ship on Xanga, and I think only 2 people read my LJ... So, perhaps I'll get rid of this or do something with it or I don't know. I should go to bed though.


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